Nos. of things running in my mind..

1. how to get a passport with the amount of cash i have left...
2. how many days of leave do i have left for December..
3. is my pay enough to bring me overseas for the remaining months and still pay my bills..
4. how long more must i keep thinking??

Since 27 July

Ive been loving every meet ups with her.. the fun the laughter.. =)
even the down moments dont seem so down.. theres always a smile on each others face.. =)
ily dear.. =)

Everyday

Im gettin sick and tired..must every thing go ur way?? don my thoughts count??
every time i give u my POV u snap on me.. wth is wrong with u??
Im sick of it..

21 July

Im down with a sickness.. Im now feelin feverish, havin a headache and sore throat.. -.-
maybe its swine flu and ill die soon.. well hopefully not.. i still haven live my life to the fullers..
well tats all for the update.. oh ya.. i haven check my temperature.. =P

My days

Every single day its gonna be the same.. -_-"
Every day there will be mood swings..
im hatin this.. i feel like exploding..

FYI

i don have any girls pic in my fon.. i've delete it so as u wish..
im tryin to make u happy.. plz understand..
i just came back from hell.. the deep hatred of the past..
and i don mwant to go back..

You might not know

I've been through hell once.. and im not goin thought it agn..
plz.. i noe im a guy.. but u have to stop hurtin me..
i noe u've been sgl for a long time.. so ur rough..
but u got to understand.. plz don make it one sided...
its hard enough i wanna keep up with u.. and now..
plz stop makin me regret wat i did.. i wanna stay with u.. but u got to make it two sided..
i cant be the onli one tat got the care for both.. i need ur help.. so plz..
and i don wanna go back hell.. i wanna stay.. don make me go back.. i don wanna go back..

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28 May

Met up with her.. shes sweet like sugar.. shes hot and im goin crazy..
feel like askin her out for a date.. :P
anyways now im back to havin holidays.. woots2.. raise ur hands to the air... woots2..
haha..

21 may

its 1.30am.. and i was thinkni while listenin to simple plan - i can wait forever..
as some of u might noe its the song i gave her (girl A) after we broke up..
as im listenin to it.. im also think in.. shld i keep waitin?? shld i let her go?? shld i leave her??
i already said to her im comin back but i donno bout her if she want me back..
in a big confusion right now..
and in the other hand.. girl B.. some of u might noe.. is somehow driftin away from me..
i noe its selfish to want them.. well looks like i can never love someone cos each time i do so..
they want me out of their life.. well is sucks.. i noe.. my whole life sucks.. parents who don want me to be at home and they hate to see me.. ppl who i love.. don want me to be part of them..
i cant say anything.. i donno if its part of life.. but im sure hatin it.. the pain.. the sadness.. the confusion... every thing is breakin me down.. and now its 1.40 and im listenin to the first song tat girl A send me.. Trillit - A perfect feellin.. well not anymore.. it feels like goin throu hell all over agn.. im sry.. i truly am for changin ur life for the worst.. Don worry im not gonna kill myself..
tats just plain stupid.. ppl with no brains onli do tat.. and sry for not postin for a while.. i just not nt good in this sucky life..

7 May

Today was boring.. nt much happend..

To (A): i miss u so much.. at least when i msg do reply me.. im just worried about u.. i understand tat ur haven ur mid year.. its not the final.. i noe i shouldn't be sayin all this but i just wanna talk to u.. its been a few months since i saw u and its been a few days since ive heard from u.. mid is just to prepair u for the end of yrs.. cant u take just 30min out from ur studies and let me talk to u?? i miss ur voice, ur laughter, ur smile and mostly ur eyes.. i don mind goin where ever.. just let me see u..

To(B): sry im havin mix feelins towards u.. onli one thing is holdin me back.. and im not sure if u feel the same way towards me..

Sugar

You like my sugar, my sugar.
You so sweet, so sweet.
Like my candy, my candy
You so sweet, so sweet.
I got a good appetite with you on me, on me.
I’ll wrap you out of them clothes.
You my treat, my treat.
Girl you my sugar, I call you Candy
And tonight I’m gonna get me some, get me some.
Girl you my sugar, I call you Candy
And tonight I’m gonna get me some, get me some sugar.

2 May

IM bored.. i wanna go out.. how wanna ask me out.. :P
and so i did went out.. with zul and rahman.. hah.. meet them at bugis.. at 5.30.. walked to db cathey and slacked till 7.30 hah.. then went to kopitiam and watched man u vs m'bro.. and man u won 2-0 haha.. baik man u.. so anyways.. after the match we split up.. i went to meet Ain at db mrt stn.. and they went back to roberts lane.. haha.. sry dudes..

For her..

I love just who u are.. i wont try and change you.. ur my shining star.. tats y u are my favorite..
i caught her when she fell from the heaven.. ratin from one to ten, baby girl is at eleven..
Because a star like hers never really occurs in my world like this.. Only will you ever meet a girl like this..
Every other chick is a blur.. i love her.. the way she is.. cos shes my shining star..
And i pray tat you'll come back to me and stay the same.. never every change..
Now girl just look up in the sky.. its not a bird and not a plane.. its a shining star with ur name on it..

26 April

you do something to me that i can't explain.. so would i be out of line if i said.. i miss you
you have only been gone several days.. but i just need u to know u tat i miss u..
I want u now.. i need u now.. im yours forever, yes forever.. im never gonna let go..
i can see you in my mind.. and im goin to take u to a place tat u would really love..
and this time no one can stop us.. you're still the reason im breathin and you're the reason i still believe tat im still urs...